Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Poetry Tuesday

I am an explorer.
Going deep down into places many have never traveled.
Finding the answers and the questions.
Looking for the places of bliss,
The reason to smile,
And the heart of pain.
I don't explore countries or continents.
I don't need money or a passport.
My exploring is of the soul.
Tiring to get to the truth of all my struggles and loss.
Sorting out the bullshit that can't be changed,
And the chaos that needs love.
Holding on to the child that is scared and doesn't know how to deal.
Bandaging wounds, kissing the bruises and loving all the ugly.
Exploring the possibilities of a satisfied existence and not wanting more.
Just having enough to live in the harmony with me, myself and I.
I am an explore of my soul.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Fun with the Kids!

Just a regular Monday, having fun with my girls(Laura and Erika and my nephews(Shawn and Logan) coloring and playing hide-n-go-seek!

I loving coloring! Shawn says this is so hot that its on fire!!

Have a great Monday!



Friday, June 12, 2009

Lazy Friday

Its been an interesting and busy week. Went snorkling with my hubby yesterday and got sun burned really bad! Here are just some pictures on my progress with my new project.

Check me out on Treasure Cost Women's Art Alliance for Feature Friday. Thank you so much Carmen! Hope everyone has a great weekend!



Monday, June 8, 2009

What's New Monday!

The first new thing that I want to talk about is the Treasure Coast Women's Art Alliance that Carmen started. I loved going to her house and breathing in the creative air that was smoking out everywhere. I don't know what it is about being in a room full of creative women but it is so wonderful and inspiring. I had my reserves going at first because I'm not one of those people who can just make friends anywhere I go. It takes time for me to be comfortable around people and even longer to make friends. The amazing thing was that it was so laid back and easy to fit right in even though I already knew Carmen and Lauren it was nice meeting everyone else and having some girl time. The next women's art group is June 27th at Carmen's. If you live in the area and want some girl time with a creative flare then come and join us!

My friend Lauren is the featured artist for Treasure Coast Women's Art Alliance. She paints sea shells, rocks and coral. Its amazing at how small she can paint and the little saying that she comes up with are so cool! She is giving away one of her creations so go check her out!
I have finally started on this 3 painting project for my friend Matt. I just got the backgrounds done but as I was working on them last night so many ideas are coming out. I had dreams about what it looked like when it was finished. I'm loving this new challenge for me. I have done a lot of research too. The reason for the research is because Matt wants an Asian theme to it and I have never done any thing like that before. So I had to look up all Sorts of stuff like Geisha, swords and cherry blossoms. Here are some sketches of what I going for.

Yes, I know the exposed breasts are a bit much but he is a guy!!LOL Breasts are really hard to draw too. Getting them to match is so hard!

I really liking this project, I know have said that a lot but I do! And the fact that it brought me back to sketching is a wonderful bliss. Going back to my first love the pencil!

Well thank you that read this and I hope you all have a blissfully great Monday!



Saturday, June 6, 2009

I still HERE!!

Yes, I know that I have not blogged in forever!! But I'm coming back with a bang!! So What have I been doing? Well I wish I could say that I was in Fiji working on my tan...but no I was reading. I love to read. I get so into a books that I can't put it down till I'm done. I guess its my escape from the now. I have also been creating necklaces. My friend bought me these glass charms which are so beautiful. I would love to know how to blow glass! The circle one Carmen bought from me and I will have these on my etsy shop!

My little dream painting! I was just painting with my daughter and this came rushing out of me. I'm starting to see when I stop controlling my talent and just let it flow it feels so much better.

This one I'm not done with but I'm loving where its going. I like the title "Crying Rainbow" but I have to see what else I'm going to do with it.

Now for the big news. My friend wants me to paint him a picture. Well, not just one but three that will be hung up to create one big picture. The ideas that I'm going with are out of my comfort zone but I'm really liking the challenge! I will be blogging more about this when I have something to show!

Thank you for reading!


Wednesday, May 13, 2009

a moment with my source

After doing some yoga, while mediating I had a moment with my source( Higher Power). It was very insightful and yet hard to explain too. I was sitting there thinking of affirmations to concentrate on. Like I love myself, I am worthy. But they were hard to say so instead of stopping and taking a shower. I explore them more. I opened the door of open-mindedness a little more. That's when it happened. A voice in my head said,"You are loved, you are worth, why do you not believe this?" I in return I thought," I haven't done enough. I never have done enough to feel enough. I need to do more to be worthy, to be loved, to be enough." The voice spoke very low and replied," There will always be more. More love, more worth, more kindness, more hate, more ugly but all you can do right now is enough. You have been though enough pain, enough ugly, enough hurt. You deserve every great, exciting, wonderful, blissful thing that comes your way. Take it and feel enough. You are enough just the way you are. You are enough!" I was so filled with emotions that moment I had to cry. I did and it felt wonderful to let it out. To realize that all I have is enough to give in the first place is very eye opening for me. My new favorite word is enough!

In this moment do you feel enough, do have enough, do you want enough? For such an easy word it means so much.


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Poetry Tuesday

Looking at the clouds after the rain.
Feeling the presents of something from above.
Inhaling the sweet aroma of wet jasmine mixed with fresh cut grass.
Amazed with the beauty of white, gray and blue.
Taking the moment to enjoy the peaceful stillness of life.
Seeing how the sun underneath the clouds still
lights just enough of the sky to be in Aha.
Wondering how can there not be a Higher Power
with a sky as blissfully serene as this one.
Knowing this is the exact place to be centered.
Wanting this clarity all day, every day.

Monday, May 11, 2009

Delightful Monday

Do you have those kind of people in your life where the world could be blowing up but they are acting like its no big deal just smelling the roses? In a book I have been reading this lady has no money, her husband gambles all their money away and they have moved more times then she can count. But yet she writes letters to her family as if the world is a wonderful place. Yes she does tell them there is no money and husband is gambling again but still she tells them about the warm weather, the beautiful sunshine, the dew on the grass, the lizards that come out to lick the dew off, her roses that are holding up in the heat. Its pure poetry the way she describes everything and yet she focuses on the beauty not the ugly.

I have met only a few people this way and I wish I still kept in touch with because this is who I aspire to be. I want to be able to focus on the beauty rather them the ugly. Isn't that so messed up that its easier to be consumed by the bad then the good. I really hate that about me but hey I'm trying to change baby steps!!LOL Well on my day of aspiring I took a walk. Trying to focus on the beauty and stay in the moment.

I really loved my walk. It helped me open my mind and let go of a lot of stuff that has been dragging me down. I have started week two in the Artist's Way and I really like how its going so far. There is a lot of homework and writing but I never thought this would be easy. Its good for me too keeps me busy during the week. Well hope everyone had a great Monday. I leave you with a new affirmation I pick up "The capacity for delight is the gift of paying attention."

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Trusting my talent

Letting my talent take over me and not forcing I have created two new paintings still in process but I'm stoked where its going. Lately I have been getting this bursts of ideas. I think I'm going to start making a journal of ideas. So when I have a block I can just go into my bag of tricks and pull something out of the hat!

I have also been enjoying being a kid. My daughters are great helpers with that!! My husband does it all the time just jumps in and plays with them like his a big kid too. I forget about fun and it is such a relief to just let it go. Let all the have tos and shoulds out the door and just enjoy yourself. Don't worry about all the grown up stuff and just have fun! I want to be a kid again!
Anyways here are the new creations!

Then next is an update of one that I couldn't decide what to call and really didn't know what else to do with but some how it pushed its way out with a lot of headaches and me almost throwing it away. We made up and everything is better! Its called "Shoot for a Star"

Its almost finished I really am amazed how much better I feel about it. I will be so relieved when I'm finished with this one.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there. Hope you have a wonderful day and know how much you are loved. Its the hardest but most rewarding job in the world!



Tuesday, May 5, 2009

My Artist Way

OK I'm back with a more up beat mood! Last Friday I was at the book store tiring to find some new reads! I'm lost without a book on my night stand. I flipped through tons of books. There was this one about lifting the vile on God and looking at the reasons why people believe in him. It was interesting but way too much scientific jargon. I love a good mystery or romance but nothing tickled my fancy so I wondered over to the self help books. Which I use go to first to see if there is any new books on co-dependence. I found this wonderful book called the Artist's Way by Julia Cameron. Its about finding a spiritual path to higher creativity. I think this is what I have been needing to deal with my spiritually lows. So far I love all the exercises in it! The morning pages are my favorite. I love how it says to treat your artist like a child and have fun with it. I take my artist too seriously. Like its this old retired man that only likes to smoke pipes and read old books! My child artist wants to dance, make a mess and sing out loud. I took a bubble bath last night and played with my kids bath toys while I bathed. It was so much fun! I need more fun in my life and if anything that is what this book has taught me so far.

If anyone has read this book then please let me know what you thought of it. I leave you with this for this week let your child artist play and have fun! Do something you would never do in your adult life ever! Like skip in the park or build a sandcastle on the beach or play in the bath like a kid! But you have to do it by yourself only you and your child artist no one else. Try it believe me you will what to make this a weekly thing!

Thanks for checking me out!



Thursday, April 30, 2009

Spiritually Low

For the past few days I have felt spiritually low. Since I have just found my spirituality I do feel this a lot. My belief's are not defined in a book or can I go to a church. For me its more personal and I have to go to places where I feel the Universe. Where I feel there is something bigger then me out there. Like looking at the sky or the ocean. The best way to describe my spirituality is like an ant hill. We are all the ants working toward the same goal. We all play are part but we are all connected in some way. No one is more important then the other but as a whole we are all very important. Meditation helps me in this times of lowness but for some reason I have had a block. So instead of ignoring it (like the old me would have done) I dug deeper to find out why!

Finally after a small pity party I found out that I can't handle a lot of happiness in my life. I know that sounds crazy but I have been a negative person my whole life. For about 7 months now I have been trying to change my way of thinking and live a healthier life. Happiness is a stranger to me. I can only handle it in small doses. I forget to look at the bigger picture to be grateful that I have all this wonderful bliss in my life. That I'm lucky enough to be a stay at home mom in this bad economy. To be able to pretty much do what I want all day(of course when the kids are asleep!) Its so easy for me to get caught up in all the mundane things in this world. I chose to focus on this things but forget to bring the focus back to me. To see how I feel and what issues I need to deal with. Its so much easier to blame other people for my problems and bad feelings. Of course that's not healthy or being responsible for my actions.

The reason I write this on my art blog is that my spirituality is connected to my art. I feel like I'm doing my part for the ant hill when I create. This is my job to tap into my creative flow and make a tangible representation of my view. When this lowness is in full action my creative flow is like a dried up damn. I second guess everything I create and can't do anything that feels right art wise. I feel unworthy of my talent. I know this feeling does go away and I can't believe how childish I have been acting. I know this is a learning process for me and I just have to keep working it, I know I'm worth it!!

Thank you to all that read this it helps to write when I'm in my low state of mind!

I hope all of you are spiritually strong!



Monday, April 27, 2009

Scary weekend yet Creative Monday

Having had an interesting weekend. By interesting I mean scary. On Saturday my friend Matt got into a motorcycle accident. The way my husband(Eric) explained it to me I thought he had internal bleeding and needed surgery. He has a broken hand and bad road rash all over his body. See Eric had a motorcycle which I only agreed to because of Matt's convincing. Now that I see what can happen I'm not so sure I want Eric to get another motorcycle. Matt is lucky to be alive and all they can do is joke about it. I don't think its funny at all. They wouldn't be joking if he died. I'm glad Matt is OK and very thankful it wasn't Eric. I guess joking is their way of dealing with it.

OK now that I got that off my chest back to me! I have been creating like crazy. My Creative Flow is gushing out of me.

As you can see my work space is a mess like always! The Tree of Life you see in the picture is my all time favorite painting I have done. I like the darkness to it but yet the glitter and glossy paint gives it the uplifting feeling too. I love mixing opposites together. Here is up close pic.

Now I have this other painting and I feel its not done yet. But I just don't know what else to do. I don't know what to call it either.

It needs something. I know it will hit me just when is the question. I would love some ideas on what I should title it. I was thinking "Let Within Flow" or "Let the Beauty In Out" What do you think? What should the title be?

I also finished a necklace which I can't decide to put it on my etsy shop or keep it. One of the reasons to keep it would be because my camera sucks and I can't get a good picture of it. I keep telling Eric I need a new one. His reply is "sell some art and you can buy one yourself!" His so cute!

I leave you with a favor. This week let all the people you love know how thankful you are to know them. This life is too short to hold grudges or be mad for long periods of time. Who knows what tomorrow brings!

Thank you for reading


Saturday, April 25, 2009

My Insightful Friday!

On my Friday, which is the best day off the week because I can do me all day long! Love it! I went to CoDA like I always do and then I went to surprise Carmen at the Art & Wine Promenade at Nancy's Vieux Carré. It was so much fun and her art looked so awesome.

It was such a nice night out. The weather was wonderful and people were danceing all over the place. I think the wine tasting that was going on help with that. It felt good to go there and support my friend. I'm so happy for you, Carmen!

Here is some of her beautiful creations! The pictures don't do them justice. When you see them in person you just want to touch it with all the texture there is. Very Cool!

The day was great. I can totally feel and see the hints the universe is telling me. I love feeling like I am exactly were I need to in life. Not rushing what I want or trying to control the way things turn out but just living in the wonderful and powerful moment of the NOW!!


Friday, April 24, 2009

Getting ready to dive in to my Creative Flow!

When supply shopping today and I am overflowing with ideas! Can't wait to get my hands dirty.

I love the thick wire I got for making jewelery. Have a great idea for a necklace. The beads and shells are for a necklace I'm making for a co-worker of my husbands. I love the circles...I'm thinking earrings or a bracelet no maybe I could put them on canvas and paint.......see the creativity is leaking out of my pores!!

I also found this earrings that are so cool!! I want to get some sheet metal and punch a design out of it and make some charms or who knows? I am so inspired with this design. It calls to me.

I will defintly be showing my creations as they flow out of my artistic vision and become masterpicece for me to share with the world. Please stay tuned!!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I have finally done it!!

Finally I'm blogging!! Thank you to all that believed in me and my art. For those out there that have no idea what the big thing is with me and the blog well let me clue you in. I have a degree in Graphic Design and I hate computers!! Irony, got to love it. My dad always pressured me to go to college for computers ( he is a computer networker for RoadRunner) but I wanted to draw. I told him I would rather be a starving artist then have some job I hate. Well you can tell who won that fight! I went to International Academy of Design and Technology for Graphic Design.

Since, I have gone no where fast with this degree I have decide to start creating again. That was about seven months ago. I haven't done any creating for about 3 years before that. I know what your thinking, Why? If I call myself an artist then why have I not been creating? Well, the answer to that is I got caught up in being married and having babies. I am a co-dependent which I found out seven months ago. I forgot about the artist in me and thought more of the wife and mother. I forgot who I was and what I need to live. I lost me but ....

Now that I'm on the right track I thought why not go all the way and live my biggest dream! I want to have my own gallery of art, I want to be known I guess is the best way of putting it. So I have start my etsy shop which is http://www.tsdesign.etsy.com/ and now I have started my art blog! I'm on my way!

I just want to give a very special thanks to a very talented artist who is an inspiration to me and with out her encouragement I would never have done any of this! Thank you so much Carmen Namaste! Her blog is http://www.distractedbydesign.blogspot.com/

All art is on my etsy for sell!

The Climb
Trying to settle in the positive flow of happiness.
Enjoying the serenity of being in the moment.
Letting the sweet calmness coat the skin and warm the soul.
Looking to the future with truth telling eyes and a hope filled heart.
Cautiously working toward a goal of a lifetime.
Climbing the mountain more and more each day.
Only going a half a step at a time but learning how to steadily get balance.
Focusing on the positive of this journey.
Not letting the negative slip in and tear it all down.
Trying to let the artist within show all its wondrous creativity.