Spiritually Low

For the past few days I have felt spiritually low. Since I have just found my spirituality I do feel this a lot. My belief's are not defined in a book or can I go to a church. For me its more personal and I have to go to places where I feel the Universe. Where I feel there is something bigger then me out there. Like looking at the sky or the ocean. The best way to describe my spirituality is like an ant hill. We are all the ants working toward the same goal. We all play are part but we are all connected in some way. No one is more important then the other but as a whole we are all very important. Meditation helps me in this times of lowness but for some reason I have had a block. So instead of ignoring it (like the old me would have done) I dug deeper to find out why!

Finally after a small pity party I found out that I can't handle a lot of happiness in my life. I know that sounds crazy but I have been a negative person my whole life. For about 7 months now I have been trying to change my way of thinking and live a healthier life. Happiness is a stranger to me. I can only handle it in small doses. I forget to look at the bigger picture to be grateful that I have all this wonderful bliss in my life. That I'm lucky enough to be a stay at home mom in this bad economy. To be able to pretty much do what I want all day(of course when the kids are asleep!) Its so easy for me to get caught up in all the mundane things in this world. I chose to focus on this things but forget to bring the focus back to me. To see how I feel and what issues I need to deal with. Its so much easier to blame other people for my problems and bad feelings. Of course that's not healthy or being responsible for my actions.

The reason I write this on my art blog is that my spirituality is connected to my art. I feel like I'm doing my part for the ant hill when I create. This is my job to tap into my creative flow and make a tangible representation of my view. When this lowness is in full action my creative flow is like a dried up damn. I second guess everything I create and can't do anything that feels right art wise. I feel unworthy of my talent. I know this feeling does go away and I can't believe how childish I have been acting. I know this is a learning process for me and I just have to keep working it, I know I'm worth it!!

Thank you to all that read this it helps to write when I'm in my low state of mind!

I hope all of you are spiritually strong!

Namaste

Tara

Scary weekend yet Creative Monday

Having had an interesting weekend. By interesting I mean scary. On Saturday my friend Matt got into a motorcycle accident. The way my husband(Eric) explained it to me I thought he had internal bleeding and needed surgery. He has a broken hand and bad road rash all over his body. See Eric had a motorcycle which I only agreed to because of Matt's convincing. Now that I see what can happen I'm not so sure I want Eric to get another motorcycle. Matt is lucky to be alive and all they can do is joke about it. I don't think its funny at all. They wouldn't be joking if he died. I'm glad Matt is OK and very thankful it wasn't Eric. I guess joking is their way of dealing with it.



OK now that I got that off my chest back to me! I have been creating like crazy. My Creative Flow is gushing out of me.

As you can see my work space is a mess like always! The Tree of Life you see in the picture is my all time favorite painting I have done. I like the darkness to it but yet the glitter and glossy paint gives it the uplifting feeling too. I love mixing opposites together. Here is up close pic.

Now I have this other painting and I feel its not done yet. But I just don't know what else to do. I don't know what to call it either.



It needs something. I know it will hit me just when is the question. I would love some ideas on what I should title it. I was thinking "Let Within Flow" or "Let the Beauty In Out" What do you think? What should the title be?



I also finished a necklace which I can't decide to put it on my etsy shop or keep it. One of the reasons to keep it would be because my camera sucks and I can't get a good picture of it. I keep telling Eric I need a new one. His reply is "sell some art and you can buy one yourself!" His so cute!

I leave you with a favor. This week let all the people you love know how thankful you are to know them. This life is too short to hold grudges or be mad for long periods of time. Who knows what tomorrow brings!

Thank you for reading

Namaste

My Insightful Friday!

On my Friday, which is the best day off the week because I can do me all day long! Love it! I went to CoDA like I always do and then I went to surprise Carmen at the Art & Wine Promenade at Nancy's Vieux Carré. It was so much fun and her art looked so awesome.





It was such a nice night out. The weather was wonderful and people were danceing all over the place. I think the wine tasting that was going on help with that. It felt good to go there and support my friend. I'm so happy for you, Carmen!





Here is some of her beautiful creations! The pictures don't do them justice. When you see them in person you just want to touch it with all the texture there is. Very Cool!

The day was great. I can totally feel and see the hints the universe is telling me. I love feeling like I am exactly were I need to in life. Not rushing what I want or trying to control the way things turn out but just living in the wonderful and powerful moment of the NOW!!

Namaste,

Tara